urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:3sacharm play the part Lindsay 2005-05-25T15:42:10Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:3sacharm:48063 2005-05-25T15:42:10Z 2005-05-25T15:42:10Z HEY!!! <br /><br />I MADE A NEW LJ NAME!<br />IT's FASTERTHEVIBE <br />add meeeeeeeeeee urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:3sacharm:47738 2005-04-18T19:19:32Z 2005-04-18T19:19:32Z OR is it what i really wanted? To feel, or to feel different. To change or to watch others change. Testing myself, testing others? <br /><br />Realization is one factor<br /><br />Confidence the other<br /><br />When the summer comes around i'll see what i have lost and gained.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />I am soo HUNGRY~!!@! foood mmm yum yum yum <br />i miss issy today cause everyones walking their dogs... Everyone owns a dog in hoboken.. cute ones.. every breed. haha.. what am i doing with my days.. talking about dogs.. whooo i need to go do something productive.. i was bad today skipped 2 classes... i had to get some rest .. it was well needed. i think my body caught up though and its all okay now. Yesterday was cool, it was rando i was gonna go to the mall and spend some money cause theres not much else yo do on sundays and then this guy rich i know was in the parking garage and invited me to bbq so i went. It was chill, i played frisbee and a pretend game of homerun derby. got ice cream and a ticket for a free meal at taco bell whoowhowopp. if only i knew how to get to that specific taco bell.. well this week should be extremly exciting.. i work all days except tommorow and saturday and thats pure excitement in itself. And well tommorw im gonna try and order mandarin oranges form school, i dont know if they sell them but .. yeah dont ask. and thennnnn its free cone day at ben and jerrys so you might wanna hit that up. and then the most awesome part of my day , math! theres more to come of the week im sure. well im going to inhale some food urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:3sacharm:47600 2005-03-19T08:56:35Z 2005-03-19T08:56:35Z tonight was preeety cool. I went to the houkah bar for the first time. I loved it. For 5 dollars you can you get your own huuuge houkah and literally any flavor to smoke. its open till 5 which is cool so if im ever like wanting to smoke a houkah at 2 am heh. I got canteloup it was subtle yet sweet. The people i went with were so chill and nice. For an extra 2 dollars you can get these exotic teas we got egyptian tea it was yumm.. so michelle come visit me! i wanna go tot he houkah bar with you.. we can play pool too..haha urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:3sacharm:47325 2005-03-18T20:39:29Z 2005-03-18T20:39:29Z Im upset right now because im really starting to like where i live. I cant help but to think that im gonna have to leave it in just 2 more months .. suckkks urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:3sacharm:46990 2005-03-16T06:31:37Z 2005-03-16T06:31:37Z My week so far:<br /><br />Sunday- packed ate a yummy dinner with my mom, roger stacy, uncle ralph, britt and Aunt didi.<br />then went to the mall with stacy and britt and got some neat things. Then i left got back up to NJ around 9 PM and had some homework to catch up on. then slept!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!<br /><br />Monday!!!-- Alarm went off at 8 AM stayed in bed till 8:30 got up changed, peed haha, brushed make uped went ot my english mid term and all my other classes then durring lunch me and anthony went to quiznos that opened down the street yum yum. Then he skipped class and i didnt. After class i had an hour before leaving for work !!!!i worked till 11ish and got home 11:45 then began to do some more work but got distracted. <br /><br />Today!!- okay well i slept till like 10:45 but i had left the door unlocked while i slept and at 10 some dude just walked into the room while i was sleeping and was like oooooo wrong room lol... i dont even remember what i said. Theeen i showered! and then i wrote a stupid editorial. Then i ate and went to my amazing 4 hr math class. After that i drove my roomate to journalsquare and picked my friend steve up at the trainstation. We then proceeded down jfk trying to think of things to do so we went to the newport mall. , its a cute really little city riight across the river from ny kinda liek hoboken but small and big buildings. There i bought a shirt from wet seal that i am wearing riiight now and a really cute shirt form some discount store. Got home around 11... and now its 1:30 and im tired and i am going to bed... goodnight<br /><br /><br /><br />happy?!?!!? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:3sacharm:46604 2005-02-17T04:27:32Z 2005-02-17T04:27:32Z _I wake up everyday and learn something about myself or the world. It may not be the first time learning it but im being reminded of somethings that are easily forgotten. The simplest of moments are the moments that are giving me the most meaning. I've enhanced my ability to handle my emotions. I was lying in bed last night and realized something. For as many experinces i would like to go back and change, granted that i would live in the same town, I would still be the person I am today. Growing to love myself and other people, something I have admitted to only one person before that i had trouble doing is beautiful._ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:3sacharm:46533 2004-11-30T07:28:57Z 2004-11-30T07:28:57Z getting up is the hardest part of a persons day.<br />Especially if they are feeling unimportant and looking forward to a uniform day.<br />Dont you wish in that moment when you lift your head off the pillow and lay back down that you could stay in bed forever. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:3sacharm:45721 2004-11-23T06:58:23Z 2004-11-23T06:58:23Z <p>at jacks country maid deli we had this clock that had the date you had to be born to buy ciggarettes and i used to stare at it and count down when i worked there.. i might go in tommorow just to look at it..&nbsp; cause i spent alot of time doing that.</p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p>didnt used to like this song.. changed my mind.. like it alot..</p> <p><font face="Arial" size="2"><font size="1"><em>So youre leaving for months at a time, i help you out the door but once youre gone i just stare out the<br>Window please, could you please come back home what a mess that i make of my days trying to save myself, save myself then<br>Theres you, youre a mess to be made a canvas only paint could change</em></font> </font></p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:3sacharm:44606 2004-11-05T06:39:02Z 2004-11-05T06:39:02Z MICHELLE AND I ARE RECRUITING.. <br /><br />if you think you got what it takes for the "group" then let either one of is know.. <br /><br />first meeting tommorow.. 7:50 pm <br /><br /><br />&lt;3! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:3sacharm:44393 2004-11-04T21:33:22Z 2004-11-04T21:33:22Z so... <br /><br />what is going on?<br />not much.. this weekend was very awesome... saturday i dressed up as a 1940's type girl and went to a pretty hopping halloween party at candices.. i would post really awesome pictures but im lj retarded and impatient so i wont..:( maybe sometime soon i will.. <br />then sunday i didnt dress up instead we drove to north nj to see the format and surprisingly we saw people we knew so that was pretty neat.. walso aliens ere in nj.. i got a pic.. <br /><br />on a funnier note.. roger is knocking at my room door and i open it up .. he says issy wants you.. but shes down stairs.. and hes listening to the pet shop boys playing really loud and is telling me to come down stairs and dance.. cause its a REALLY good song.. riiight.. <br /><br />hes bored my mom needs to come home and entertain him<br /><br />yesterday i found out i got into jersey city university for the spring semester.. its right near new york .. so im gonna go visit it next week. i know its pretty ghetto but i mean.. alot of things are ghetto.. we'll see what happens.. i would def miss delaware but its not like im not coming home from spring break and the summer.. i actually wouldnt miss delaware... i would miss michelle cause with out her what do i have(love ya)<br />and i would miss issy and my family.. but i tell myself i can drive home on the weekends sometimes and still do things nj isnt thaat far you know.. <br /><br />hah a mexican hit my cousin yesterday at work cause she turned down her stupid mexican music.. WTF urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:3sacharm:44159 2004-10-27T07:13:00Z 2004-10-27T07:14:11Z &lt; The thin line of thinking too hard and not thinking hard enough...<br />Emptiness has taken on a new meaning. NO, i knew all along...<br />Am i really just realizing how unimportant i am? Everythings the same. Because we really are soo...<br /><br />great<br /><br /><br />Wallowing in self pity, doing things for ourselves, making ourselves happy! wow... <br />we are all so guilty of being selfish.<br /><br />now.. are you sensing something?<br />no... ?<br /><br />only sarcasm<br /><br /><br /><br />everything happens for a reason right..? balance.. right? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:3sacharm:43980 2004-10-20T23:26:29Z 2004-10-20T23:26:29Z <p><br><font face="arial" size="2"><font color="#6666cc" size="4"><strong><em>I can't stand to think about, a heart so big it hurts like hell oh my god i gave my best but for </em></strong></font></font><font face="arial" size="2"><font color="#6666cc" size="4"><strong><em>three whole years to end Like this well do you want to fall apart, i can't stop if you cant start do you want to fall apart, i could if you can tryTo fix what i've undone cause i hate what ive become<br><font color="#9999ff">You know me, oh you think you do you just dont seem to see<br>I've been waiting all this time to be, something i can't define so lets cause a scene, clap our hands and stomp our feet or<br>Something, yeah something i've just got to get myself over me </font></em></strong></font></font></p> <p><strong><em><font color="#6600cc">i could stand to do without, all the people i have left behind</font></em></strong></p> <p><font face="arial" size="2"><strong><font color="#6666cc" size="4"><em>Whats the point in going around when its a straight line baby, a straight line down so lets make a list of who me need and<br>Its not much, if anything lets make a list of who we need and we'll throw it away cause we dont need anyone no we dont need<br>Anyone<br><br>And i hate what i've become you know the night life is just not for me cause all you really need are a few Good friends i dont want to go out and be on my own you know they started something i cant stand you leave for the city, Well count me out cause all this time is wasted on everything ive done<br></em></font></strong></p></font> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:3sacharm:43553 2004-10-17T07:28:22Z 2004-10-17T07:28:22Z TROPHY SCARS!!!!<3 okay .. well im sitting here.. its 3:30 and i kinda just got home.. i miss issy cause its too late to wake my mom up to go get her but i think i can go a night with out her.. i only wish i didnt have to get up at 9:45 to go to work tommorow.. anyway....<br /><br />When i think about tonight.. nothing but a smile comes to my face.. Everything was beautiful.. even the people werent soo bad tonight.. the fireworks... two awesome bands, one of the bands being on my top 5 favorite bands list haha. and even thooooooough neither played my favorite songs .. i enjoyed them just as much.. <br /><br />Then we went to chill in pa at candices and that was alot of fun to just hang out and talk to people..<br /><br />all in all a perfect sat night and i wouldnt have spent it with anyone else.. <br /><br /><br />&lt;3 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:3sacharm:43468 2004-10-08T05:22:41Z 2004-10-08T05:22:41Z acceptance crazy crazy things.. haha through out the day sometimes i think of stuff i should write on my livejournal.. then when i actually sit down to maybe update the thing i always forget ... and the stuff i think of randomly is just soo good in my head.. yet never sounds quite as good when i write it .. unless i try hard...<br /><br /><br /><br />Girls .. all we do really is think about boys and i am serious.. in every situation.. its time to face it.. me and my girrrrl Michelle were talking about it.. With any decent looking guy .. girls will think in their head.. sometimes without even realizing it.. about possible relationships.. sex.. and stuff like that ... im wondering... are we worse about this stuff than boys.. i mean even if were just going somewhere for a second.. the possibility is always there .. always thinking.. wondering.. dreaming.. cause thats what we do.. its fun<br /><br />saturday is going to be awesome.. cauuuuusee im going to the apple orchard!!! cant wait.. haunted house!!! party!!! yey...<br /><br />WED?!?!<br /><br />LOVE, me urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:3sacharm:43183 2004-09-27T03:11:52Z 2004-09-27T03:27:22Z <p><strong><font size="4">AWESOME</font></strong></p><br /><p>The shows this weekend were really awesome... the mosh was brought.. not really by me but it was brought.. </p><br /><p>Life is awesome ... </p><br /><p>halloween decorations are DEF awesome...</p><br /><p>This fuckin music is awesome.. </p><br /><p>and my bed .. that is just really really awesome..</p><br /><p>and my car even though it can suck is actually really awesome.. </p><br /><p>People even though they can suck are really awesome</p><br /><br />And saves the day ups and downs is awesome! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:3sacharm:42938 2004-09-15T04:26:19Z 2004-09-15T04:30:25Z What were people talking about when they said dirty dancin havana nights sucked! seriously i loooovvvedd it.. so what the acting sucks.. how hot was the dancing.. and javiar.. he was hot.. and his dancing was hottt i want him... i cryed at the end..<br /><br />i wanna dance!!!<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />with javiar urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:3sacharm:42519 2004-09-13T03:00:17Z 2004-09-13T03:00:17Z ehh weekend wasnt too awesome.. <br /><br />alot of work and stuff..<br /><br />Today my mom called me at work and well... <br /><br />My sisters apartment complex burned down completely.. she lost everything .. the only things she has is herself the clothes she was wearing and her dog maisy... chloe is dead and her roomates dog is dead.. <br /><br />Im really sad for her.. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:3sacharm:42421 2004-09-07T01:06:14Z 2004-09-07T01:06:14Z BestDecptions11: i wants 40's though<br />CROTCHPAPR: lol drink of the homeless<br />BestDecptions11: lol ahh thats me<br />BestDecptions11: homeless<br />BestDecptions11: i had to attack a woman walking down the street with a laptop in her hand to get online today<br />CROTCHPAPR: damn girl<br />CROTCHPAPR: your viscious<br />BestDecptions11: yeah its was pretty bad<br />CROTCHPAPR: i bet you could get alot of 40's for that laptop<br />BestDecptions11: haha i know thats what i was thinking when i attacked her.. but since i live on the streets i dont get to check my email too often<br />CROTCHPAPR: you should be a bag lady<br />BestDecptions11: i am<br /><br /><br />yeahh this weekend was okay... nice seeing people i havent seen and just chattin it up with people...and playing air hockey and getting beat by michelle .. and *partying* urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:3sacharm:42090 2004-09-03T04:19:08Z 2004-09-03T04:19:08Z We hurt..We get hurt.. It is a cycle and no one is immune to emotions.<br /><br />You cant change the way you feel about something .. that is true..<br /><br />I understand.. i didnt know how to react<br /><br />Everyone is the same.. everyone is different.<br /><br />Def a better release than swings going to the park at 12 would suck..<br /><br />In the back of mind i cant help to think that i will be gone someday, and the things i do that maybe i dont see will be too, im sorry for in one way or another making you feel the way you do.. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:3sacharm:41954 2004-08-31T04:40:50Z 2004-08-31T04:40:50Z SO... tell me.. you know when your at the movie theater and theres always that one solo seat, who sits there? its weird.. the one seat with nothing surrounding it. <br /><br />Summer is leaving and the season for depression .. beauty.. crisp.. cold .. sweaters .. dark .. snow .. colors .. gray .. shivering .. cuddling .. hot cocoa! .. pumpkins .. walks .. scary! .. cookies .. fooooood .. presents .. looovvvveeee .. my b day! .. trees .. fires .. gloves .. hats and scarves .. missing and wanting and thinking even more .. lonely .. and sick<br /><br />they all come to mind for the fall winter seasons.. im gonna miss summer nights.. def take advantage of them when theyre around. but at the same time i loove the changing of the seasons . along with them they bring different feelings and memories.. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:3sacharm:41506 2004-08-25T07:18:39Z 2004-08-25T07:18:39Z I am Insane..... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:3sacharm:41380 2004-08-23T23:00:27Z 2004-08-23T23:00:27Z well... i just got home from a vigorous bike ride adventure.. and my first day of class and a meeting at work.. its been a long day that didnt seem so long.. and now my mama is cooking me dinner.. and then i have no idea what im doing tonight.. im sure theres things i can do.. but do i really want to do them or just do them to waste time until tommorow which is gonna be another long day of class and then work till 10 yey! i wanna see without a paddle.. michelle comes home wed.. and im off that day hopefully we can haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaang outttttttttttttttt girl...&lt;3 well im gonna go eat food cause roger is saying that ive never had food like this.. what ev urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:3sacharm:41066 2004-08-16T06:52:08Z 2004-08-16T06:52:08Z you get me..<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /> please can you tell me so i can finally see where you go when your gone..<br /><br />so what if i see the sunshine in the pouring rain..<br />some people think im crazy<br />but you say its okay<br /><br />i am all you want, they just read me wrong<br /><br />hey you were on my side and they just rolled their eyes... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:3sacharm:40813 2004-08-10T23:53:22Z 2004-08-10T23:53:22Z i asked her if she saw the commercial and she was like yeah.. and we both started laughing... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:3sacharm:40665 2004-08-10T20:22:38Z 2004-08-10T20:22:38Z last night i walk into my room... everythings nice and clean and i have my new bed and its approxamately 1 0 clock. I look on my bed and my bowl and lighter are sitting there with a little note that must have fallen on the floor.. "lindsay we need to talk, love mom"<br />juuust like the commercial that jesse was talking about yesterday.. she knew about it all day and waited till that night to do anything.. i bet you she saw the commercial yesterday lol...